16 Jan How to Kill it on your worst day!

“Even at your worse. You’re somebody else’s blessing” – Dr Juanita Bynum

I heard those words last year when I saw Dr. Bynum speak. They hit me like a ton of bricks. I couldn’t sleep for two days because my Nana was on my heart and spirit so heavy. I miss her so much and she’s been gone for over 20 years, but I had to learn to live with loss because the people that I loved and raised me are gone and they’re not coming back. I cried that night because I thought about all the things in life she never even dared to dream. She was born in the middle of the Great Depression. The youngest of 12 children and so limited on every level. But, that’s not the reason she didn’t have dreams.

There’s hundreds of thousands of black women born in the South with that same story that defied all odds and became great leaders, educators and entrepreneurs. Her situation wasn’t her limit. She was. And that’s a hard pill to accept about someone that was nothing but an angel to you. So, my tears that night were not just of grief, but I cried to cleanse my own spirit.

I never knew until that very moment why I was so resilient or fearless. I learned what not to do by watching her mistakes and I guess in the end it doesn’t matter how you get the lesson as long as you learn it. I dream and do because she didn’t and for some reason or another couldn’t.

The wrap up…I do a lot. But I’d rather juggle these 50 balls in the air all day than not be the women I was put here to be. Is is hard? Absolutely! But if it were easy everyone would be rich, well traveled, have a great home and amazing friends. That’s not real life. That’s #Instagram

Up early because my closing was moved up and I have to be an hour away, but I ain’t going for free and I leave with a whole check so, I don’t complain about blessings I prayed for. I suggest you stop complaining and start doing! ????????